Surviving your mind

At 61 years of age, I thought by now I would be sitting in the easy chair enjoying the beauty of my life.
Somewhere along the way I came to believe that life got easier as we got older.
Somewhere along the way I came to believe that if I believed strong enough that all good things would come my way.
Well guess what folks, not surprising to those of us who have been around the block a few times, most of us have found that things have not quite worked out the way we thought they would.
However, I am still alive and in amazingly good health for all I have put myself through and still kicking strong enough to take on a few more adventures.
When I turned 60, I found that all through that year my mind focused on what I had done with my life; mostly what I had done wrong according to my ego’s definition of successful living. It was a very busy year for my mind as it had a lot of fodder to chew on and an equally busy year for me to maintain some form of sanity while listening to all my ego’s crap.
As I worked through this long time of self-persecution I kept asking myself what was the reason for my existence at this time. Was it only to suffer? Was it to continue trying to focus on collecting stuff? Was it to pursue the best relationship ever? Was it to support my children? Was it to prove myself?
I am sure that we all could continue asking mountains of questions that we will never really know the answers to except the original question. There is an answer to the original question:
“Why was I born into the existence?” or “What is the purpose of my life?”
As a person who is spiritually focused by nature and a believer in a Universal God, I can only believe there is one answer to these questions.
As the Oracle at Delphi in Ancient Greece states above its door:
Know Thyself.Know thyself. This statement resonates to me in such a basic way that it gives me the resilience that helps me so I can continue to carry on with my day to day life and not worry if I made a million dollars today or whatever other worldly deed I did and maintain some semblance of sanity. I do not have to concede to my ego’s beatings regarding my inability to provide myself, my partner or my children with the idyllic life they wanted from me.
All my job is in every minute of the day is to accept myself and the way life is developing for me and decide if that is the way I want my life to work out. I may not be able to change the circumstances of my life at any given moment but I can change my attitude toward the evolution I am participating in and consciously make decisions that can affect the long-term outcome.
I can recognize my shortcomings and sessions of weakness. I can recognize and accept my skills and values as a person.
I can also recognize the amazing ability of my mind to accept and/or change the way I look at life and the thoughts that I choose to focus on in each moment.
I have found this life to be exceptionally difficult. In this, I realize how hard I have been on myself, how I beat myself up at any given opportunity and how I can tend to focus on the negative instead of the positive. I believe that in this that I am a fairly normal human being.
However, because of what I have learned through my schooling in spiritual matters, when I have finished beating myself up, I amazingly pick up the pieces and carry on with my life.
I can do this because, no matter how bad things look for me, I know that I am not my thoughts and they do not have any kind of hold on me. When things get too bad I know that all I have to do is sing a few songs or go for a walk in nature, then things are all right again.
How do you get yourself back on track? How do you deal with yourself when your ego is busy beating you up? Can you separate yourself from the ravages of your mind? What tools have you learned that help you maintain sanity in your world?
I believe that ability to recognize and distinguish between one’s true self and one’s mind chatter is essential to good mental health and survival on this plane of existence. I think that many people who suffer mental challenges and dependencies on mind altering drugs suffer from a misunderstanding about how to manage the activities in their mind or that they are not required to listen to or obey that never ending voice in their head.
I honestly do not know how I would have survived this far in my life if I had not learned how to separate myself from and shut off the crap that my mind produces. It is absolutely essential in my books for every person to learn how to install that “off switch” in their brain. here is a youtube video I put together a while ago. It contains a super easy technique for quieting your mind that works fast. I know, I use it a lot!
Quieting the mind